Bombs and Bullets.

The Pacifist Loyalist

Belfast Child Autobiography – Coming UP

Well now that I’ve covered dad’s death I am  now ready to move on to the next stage of my life, which was predictable full of woes and misery. But its not all bad and there were many happy time, especially when I discovered drugs and girls and lost myself completely in both.

But before I got there I had many more miles to travel on the winding road  of  my “Wonderful ”  life.

After dad’s death I wanted to be left alone to grieve and try and find the will to continue and find something positive to look forward to in the future.  But as usual  fate took a malevolent interest in my destiny and continued to abuse me.

I tried to adapt to the many changes after dad’s death, from moving among dad’s relatives  and questioning my faith in God. And I began to think more and more of Mum and even suspecting that she might not be dead after all.

Belfast Child

Keep reading  my story….

• How in my desperation to find mum I approached the salvation army in secret and asked them to help me find mum, but due to the fact I had no details about her, including her surname they were unable to do anything for me.
• Why I had a secret meeting with a Catholic priest and how this meeting changed my view of Catholics.

• Found comfort in god and the church and even held my own services , with Bother George in the dry stock room of the Co – Op  we both worked in. Bother George was very stupid and I was his master!

• Found out I liked the high I got from glue and spent my teenage years experimenting with  one drug or another. And it wasn’t blocking out the pain, it was making my life bearable and I enjoyed it. Had some crazy trips on acid though.

• Had a horrific accident in school that put me back in hospital for six months.

• Joined the UDA and was prepared to fight for my Queen and Country, but I was not prepared to kill innocent Catholic’s or anyone for that matter.

• My time in the UDA and the military and loyalist history lessons and workshops

• Watched as many of my friends were punished  (kneecapped) by the paramilitaries, Joined the paramilitaries and some even became Loyalist killers and others ended up dead.
• And how many years later when I was older and wiser a letter from the past set in motion a chain of events that would finally lead to me finding mum and our reunion after almost 25 years apart.

And much more………

So if your interested in my story please  keep reading and spread the word. I want my story to be seen by as many as possible and if you can retweet this or send a link to your friends and family I would be most grateful.

Take care and be happy.

John  Chambers