“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear “
Thank you all for being so kind, caring and supportive yesterday, I was truly touched at how many of you reached out to me and it helped lift the gloomy cloud that was hanging over me and I feel much better and more positive today.
Grief for a loved one is never ending and I have been grieving for my dad for over forty years now , a lifetime of sorrow and pain that can never completely heal. Most of the time I can deal with it and banish the pain of losing him at such an early age to the dark passages of my soul.
But sometimes it can creep up on me unexpectedly and hit me like a sledgehammer and time stands still as the sadness and sorrow of missing him engulfs my entire being and the fear of never ending grief stops me dead in my tracks .
That was the case yesterday and I suppose I should have expected it with the anniversary of his death approaching and also rereading through the chapters of my book which deal with his death was not the smartest move on my part in hindsight.
Anyways Im feeling much better now with the support of wifey and the kids and just wanted to say thank you to all of you who reached out to me yesterday.